We drank bottled water together and talked business
I think I played the right moves
you were looking over my shoulder
as I went through the motions of another night

And it was allright,because I thought I knew
who everybody was just by looking at them
my heart is anywhere but here

And how tired I was from the past couple weeks
from the past couple years, well it hit me all at once
on a balcony overlooking nothing
with snow falling all around
well I, I called just to say good-night

And you hadn't done anything wrong
really, it's me not you
I can't believe how naive I was
to think things could ever be so simple

And can you live with what you know about yourself
when your all alone behind closed doors
the things we never said but we always knew were right there
and it's got me on my knees in a bathroom
praying to a god I don't even believe in
"Dear jesus...are you listening?"
if this is the one chance that really matters
don't let me fuck this up

If you had told me about all this when I was fifteen
I never would have believed it.